I've been with out the internet for a couple of weeks, that's why I haven't been posting.
I'm doing okay, I'm taking steps to help myself get over my depression, I've admitted myself to a partial hospitalization program, yesterday was my first day, it was really hard and it's going to be really, emotionally exhausting but in the end it will help, it's j ust going to take a while, once my depression has reached a managable level, I can then go back to the grief center and work on my grieving. I know you're all probably thinking, isn't depression part of grief? It is, yes, but my depression is severe and with me having bipolar it only intensifies the depression. But at least I'm willing to do it, I finally figured out that I care about my self, if I didn't I wouldn't be doing this.
Thanks for caring, I appreciate it, I really feel alone in all of this.